My story...<3

On 6th December 2021, I received a phone call that shattered my life within a split second. A phone call I wouldn't wish anyone to receive in their lifetime.

As I was laying in bed that Monday morning, about to get ready for any regular day, I received a phone call from the police and was informed by them that my husband had taken his life and had passed away. Pardon? What? You must be mistaken... Are you sure? He was sure.

The road that lay ahead of me as of 6th December 2021, was one I never thought I would ever have to walk in my lifetime, and I'm still learning how to walk it on a daily basis. Losing my best friend, my husband, the person I shared a home with, my life with; was the biggest loss and heartbreak I have ever experienced. My angel, now an angel of heaven.

This journey is one no-one can ever prepare you for. The ups, the downs, the sharp turns, the deep plunges, the empty spaces, smiling one moment and falling apart the next. It has felt like chaos and peace all in the same breath. There are so many facets to this journey of grieving, I had no idea.

A few things I do know though and take comfort in as I walk this path are:

• I will forever love Bernard 💓 He will always be in my heart, a part of me and a part of my life story. No-one can ever take that away from me.

• There is a season for everything in my life (Ecclesiastes 3:1-4),

• As a Christian, I have the beauty of mourning with a hope for being whole and happy again one day (Psalm 30:5, Psalm 34:18, Matthew 5:4, Revelation 21:4)

• There is a bigger story at play here. As I keep my eyes fixed on Jesus, I will not be shaken as surely as the Lord reigns (Hebrews 12:2)

Forever and always babe, I will love you xxx

∞💓